Fear of Knowing

Many people are afraid of the unknown and with good reason. Knowing that changes are going to happen that can affect your life in a variety of ways, some of which may not be very good, is scary. Fear of change is not a bad thing as long as you don’t let it be a roadblock to you and hinder you from success and personal growth. Tomorrow at 4 pm, I’m finally taking the first step to removing the roadblock that’s hindering me from some much-needed change and growth.

I’m going to see a therapist tomorrow. I’m nervous and honestly, I’m pretty scared. I know that I need help because I’m having problems that are interfering with my life and my ability to function and even though I’ve already been diagnosed with ADHD as a child, I’m afraid that I’m going to end up with another diagnosis. I know that having a diagnosis is not a bad thing and may be needed to help me sort out and gain control of the problems I’ve been having, but I also know that I have a family who isn’t going to be supportive of me if I do go back home over winter break with a shiny new diagnosis. Continue reading “Fear of Knowing” →

Living With ADHD

As a student/person with ADHD, I have struggled a lot. Sometimes, it was torture to do what seemed like a simple everyday task. “It’s not that hard, just use your common sense”, people would say to me. I struggled a lot as a child and I never learned how to effectively cope with having ADHD. As of now, I’m still learning about myself and my brain. Continue reading “Living With ADHD” →

Thinking in Print

For a long time now, I have been struggling with feelings of anxiety and depression and what has been weighing most heavily on my mind lately is the broken relationship between me and my best friend. I love my best friend dearly and she has been through so much in these past few years. What seemed to cause the shift in our friendship was when she started doing drugs and hanging out with other people. I had tried so hard to be the best friend she needed and to always be there for her when she needed it. I knew many of the other people she was friends with, and that the majority of them were bad influences on her but there wasn’t much I could do other than try to be a support system in her time of need. Continue reading “Thinking in Print” →